To be honest, I have been struggling with writing this post for some time. Today I started a new job. After seven years at my old company it was very different walking into a new building, sitting in a new seat, and being surrounded by new faces. Many times the past few weeks I have just found myself at a loss for words. If there is one thing that I hate above all others, it’s goodbyes. And I have had a lot of those the past few weeks.
All I could think is that it is truly an ending of an era. I grow up with my last company. In fact, it was not a company, but a family. I can not say enough good things about my fellow co-workers, managers, and especially the owner of the company. I learned so much, and I will always be eternally grateful. Many times during this hardest decision I have questioned whether I am doing the right thing or not. I seek out advice from others, much smarter than I. And had many open and honest conversations that always turned into me soul searching. Maybe it is the fact that I have a little daughter that is a few short months from being here. Maybe it is the fear of change. But in the last month, I have never read as much as I have, listened to as many podcast, or prayed as much. I have learned early on that I cannot go through life alone, but I have to turn to others for Godly advice. It is funny, funny ironic, how no matter what I heard or read it always applied to what I was wanting answers on. Like reading John Maxwell when he says “Never make a major decision during an emotionally low time. Second, choose to be proactive, not reactive, in your leadership.” I can’t say that I followed that first rule, but I decided to be proactive. My life is no longer just about me, even more so that I have a little one on the way.
I don’t know if it is because I have been reading too many nautical books lately, or why this has stuck to me so much lately, but I could not stop thinking “Fair winds and Following Seas”. I know what it means. It is usually used to wish others a safe journey, good fortune, and usually signify a change in command. Maybe I am wishing myself all of that, or I know that all of that is true to my situation. So whether you are just starting a new journey, or in the middle of a journey, or ending a journey; as we start a new day tomorrow, I wish you all Fair Winds and Following Seas, and long may your big jib draw.